Samuel Clair BankheadTonight I got the call the I had been dreading. My grandpa had just passed away. I can't help but feel as though I somehow let him down. You see, I work every day to save and enhance lives through organ and tissue donation and yet I could not help him find a bone marrow donor. We don't do bone marrow through the company I work for but still I feel like I should have done more. I was tested to see if I could donate to him and although I had the same 'rare' antigen I was not a match with all the other antigens. I spoke to others about being tested and did a lot of investigation of other possible treatments for him. But nothing worked. He had six months or so of remission and then it came back as ugly as ever. Tonight I feel so angry (at the cancer) and just plain sad. It doesn't help that my relationship with my mom has been strained lately but it still breaks my heart to see her grieving too. Also, the thought of my grandma being without my grandpa is so heartbreaking it can bring me to my knees. I guess I will have to rely on the knowledge that the Lord is in control and that we will be reunited one day, for sometimes that is the only thing that will get me through.
4 comments:
Jamie, I am so sorry for your loss. Having recently lost a grandparent, I can understand your grief. Let me know if there is anything you need.
I am sorry. I have lost all my grandparents due to harsh diseases, it is not easy.
When the page loaded I was surprised to see that your grandpa had passed, even though you had told me it was soon to happen. My heart goes out to you guys.
I had no idea that things were so tough with the Newmans. Other than sending my prayers, is there anything I can do to help?
-Mark
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